Peace within... Allowing God to Control

 

  God's control? what does that mean? Does it mean only those areas in our lives we are willing to let go of? or is it every place deep inside us, every situation that we are daily dealing with, or every hardship that seems to much for us? As I touched this area today during my God time, I read Romans 6:11-12; So, you too consider yourse;ves dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus. Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body, so that you obey its desires. For us to be alive in Christ we must let go of everything, even the hidden areas within our lives. If we don't we are allowing those areas to reign within us, and giving Satan control of even the little areas. 

 My hair pulling I never really saw as a sin because it didn't effect my temple, it just left me looking different then others. My PTSD I didn't give over to God, because I felt it was too small of a situation that I could deal with on my own. But the issue is; hair pulling hurts your mental state, when you have to hide the fact you pull it's a sin, because why would you hide, if it wasn't something you were ashamed of and trying to hide from others. When I look at my hair pulling and allowing myself that free card that it isn't a sin, I allowed the PTSD to continue and the fears of Keith's life being taken while away. That it just got worse.

A good example; I'm dealing with our swimming pool by myself while Keith is gone, that in itself always leads to disaster; does every time. I've been dealing with a green pool since Keith left, I saw a little green growing before I left for California so I placed shock in the pool, and filled the chlorine containers up, and I went on my way. Not seeing that it was the beginning sign of big things to come. When I got home from California, the pool looked like a pond, I was looking for frogs and Lilly pads. What was a tiny show of green, within a few weeks turned into a hug amount. So I cleaned the filter, taking it apart and cleaning each area. Placed it back together, ( yes, it still all worked) and within a few days water was clear once again.I was so proud of myself, thought it's all gone. But, within a week there was green growing once again, no matter how hard I tried that green just grew; So I sit here today with again a green pool. Because I didn't take care of it at that first sign of issues, I'm dealing with constant issues that continue to try and overpower. Chemicals are good, and at the right place but because green sits it's given that freedom to grow.

Sin is no different, it starts out small and we ignore that it's sin because it doesn't effect our physical body, but before we know it the issue has grown so big that we don't know how to deal with it, and it's overtaken our lives. We try to hide it as it's OK I got this, but because we don't give every single ounce of sin, it takes over. Vs. 12 in Romans again says. " Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body, so that you obey its desires." Paul knew that if sin wasn't taken care of quickly it would become a growing allege within our lives. I can allow hair pulling to control me, and I continue to hide behind wigs and hats, or I can deal with the sin and not give even a tiny bit of sin so that it can grow. Step 6 and 7 in Serenity is not hiding the sin any longer and allowing God and others to come along side me so that I don't allow this area within my life to turn into something huge.( Which it already is, because I didn't deal with it) For me to be the spiritual leader I must release every area and know that God is greater than mans view.

As we deal with the little things in our lives, give it to God. The sin grows quickly and no matter how much spiritual food you place in, if your not dealing with that sin it will still grow.