God's will not mine
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your request be made known to God, and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Phil. 4:6-7
Being a mother of special need kids, sometimes the fear can seem to creep in and at that moment forgetting that we are not in control, God is.
This month has already turned out to be a tough one, Last week I hurt my back pretty bad at the same time the boys got sick. Here I sat being told not to move around, not to do daily chores to rest. Then I look at my boys who were needing love and care with fevers and coughing. My husband was working nights, so that meant sleeping days to get up in the afternoon to shoot to work, so bothering him to help I didn't see as an option.
As I sat crying not knowing what I was going to do, Knowing my husband didn't have the time to handle the kids medical issues, let alone mine. I tried to continue on in my own pace, crying for God's hand to heal my body from the pain I was in.
By Friday, when the call came in from the schools almost back to back that the boys were running fevers and not feeling well. My husband realized what was happening and quickly went into action. Taking care of household issues, coming home to cook dinner for the kids and put them to bed, heading back to work to come home at 6am to help again with a wife in pain and kids sick.
It's hard to be the one sitting back allowing someone to take care of you, The feelings of I should be doing more seeping in. Not wanting to wear my husband out, from dealing with work and family. I laid in tears, not knowing what to do. Then this scripture came to me. I prayed God would heal me, That didn't happen how I felt it should, but it did in God's way. The healing of letting Keith know he was still needed, that I needed to rest in my husbands arms and allow him to care for the family.Things in the home still needed to be in the right order to run smoothly. That I needed to sit back and relax and let Keith take over this week with what needed to be done.
I asked in prayer, I brought my needs before the Lord and he answered in how he saw fit. Not my will but his. So don't be anxious in anything because God has it under control, even if he answers in a different way then your asking for. =).
Phil. 4:6-7
Being a mother of special need kids, sometimes the fear can seem to creep in and at that moment forgetting that we are not in control, God is.
This month has already turned out to be a tough one, Last week I hurt my back pretty bad at the same time the boys got sick. Here I sat being told not to move around, not to do daily chores to rest. Then I look at my boys who were needing love and care with fevers and coughing. My husband was working nights, so that meant sleeping days to get up in the afternoon to shoot to work, so bothering him to help I didn't see as an option.
As I sat crying not knowing what I was going to do, Knowing my husband didn't have the time to handle the kids medical issues, let alone mine. I tried to continue on in my own pace, crying for God's hand to heal my body from the pain I was in.
By Friday, when the call came in from the schools almost back to back that the boys were running fevers and not feeling well. My husband realized what was happening and quickly went into action. Taking care of household issues, coming home to cook dinner for the kids and put them to bed, heading back to work to come home at 6am to help again with a wife in pain and kids sick.
It's hard to be the one sitting back allowing someone to take care of you, The feelings of I should be doing more seeping in. Not wanting to wear my husband out, from dealing with work and family. I laid in tears, not knowing what to do. Then this scripture came to me. I prayed God would heal me, That didn't happen how I felt it should, but it did in God's way. The healing of letting Keith know he was still needed, that I needed to rest in my husbands arms and allow him to care for the family.Things in the home still needed to be in the right order to run smoothly. That I needed to sit back and relax and let Keith take over this week with what needed to be done.
I asked in prayer, I brought my needs before the Lord and he answered in how he saw fit. Not my will but his. So don't be anxious in anything because God has it under control, even if he answers in a different way then your asking for. =).
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