Overwhelm Vs Peace
As I sit here writting this blog, I have my daughter who has found her new graduate wings and off with friends spending the week on the beach, A son finishing off his 3rd grade year and the other not being able to finish off his 6th grade year in school but in the hospital. My husband is off at school and I sit at night wondering when this ride will stop.
It has been hard having Micah in the hospital again after just 2 months ago being there, its a hard dose of reality that this disease is taking a hold of my son a little more. He has done most of the hospitalzation on his own, With me being torn between 2 CF boys one here at home the other in the hospital. Wanting to be there for both, but knowing Micah is capable of caring for himself, Elijah is not. So I tear the highways of Hawaii up going back and forth to Tripler.
Then yesterday I read in my devotional time, Philippians 4: 6-7 and it hit me like a ton of bricks my God is holding me, carring me and loving me through each step in my life right now.
" Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experence God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus".
When I accept the road I am on, not worrying about things I can't change and instead prasing God for all he has given me, the wonderful children and wonderful husband, wonderful church, wonderful friends. Thanking God can seem harder when it seems everything is crashing down on me. But I know when I focus on the praising and less on the complaining there is a peace within me that I can't explain.
I watched the movie Facing the Giants again on Sunday, I asked myself will I praise you in any circumstance? Will I allow God to do his will in me or complain the whole time and turn my back on him. So I sat there crying, Knowing I will Love God if my boys are healed and I will love him if they have to wait till they get to heaven. His will is better then my will. So I release my boys to the Lords hands for God's will to be done.
So my scripture for the week is " Don't worry about anything; pray about everything". Phil 4:6
It has been hard having Micah in the hospital again after just 2 months ago being there, its a hard dose of reality that this disease is taking a hold of my son a little more. He has done most of the hospitalzation on his own, With me being torn between 2 CF boys one here at home the other in the hospital. Wanting to be there for both, but knowing Micah is capable of caring for himself, Elijah is not. So I tear the highways of Hawaii up going back and forth to Tripler.
Then yesterday I read in my devotional time, Philippians 4: 6-7 and it hit me like a ton of bricks my God is holding me, carring me and loving me through each step in my life right now.
" Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experence God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus".
When I accept the road I am on, not worrying about things I can't change and instead prasing God for all he has given me, the wonderful children and wonderful husband, wonderful church, wonderful friends. Thanking God can seem harder when it seems everything is crashing down on me. But I know when I focus on the praising and less on the complaining there is a peace within me that I can't explain.
I watched the movie Facing the Giants again on Sunday, I asked myself will I praise you in any circumstance? Will I allow God to do his will in me or complain the whole time and turn my back on him. So I sat there crying, Knowing I will Love God if my boys are healed and I will love him if they have to wait till they get to heaven. His will is better then my will. So I release my boys to the Lords hands for God's will to be done.
So my scripture for the week is " Don't worry about anything; pray about everything". Phil 4:6
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