Elijah's normal, not ours

Romans 2:18.. You know what he wants you to do, and whats important, because you have learned the law. ( God's law)

It seems I constantly get myself into the same bind over and over again. The take on to much bind, They are in need so I can take on this extra task bind. The bind that tends to get me way over my head and overwhelmed.
I again had to step back and look at my priorities and see where they are laying. I knew there was a commitment I needed to release to stay within the prirorties I have. I didn't want to disappoint anyone, and most of all I didn't want to fail. So I continued on still knowing in my heart that I was not walking the right path and taking something that was way above me.
As I stepped back I looked and saw the most important thing suffering because of the commitment I took on. My BOYS.. I began falling behind in treatments and feedings, I began getting stressed at little things and yelling way more then I should. The breaking point was this last few weeks when I myself have been very sick and the commitment I took on hung over my head like a soar. I didn't know how to let it go, knowing it needed to be released but feeling like a failure and disappointment to all those involved.
I read today in Romans 7 Pauls anguish over his struggles and boy they stood out like mine. Why do I do the things I shouldn't do and don't do the things I know I should. Well I can honestly tell you when its Gods will for you to release something and he is telling you to do so.You better do it or he will do it for you.
This morning I got an email, that brought on many emotions, one of relief, disappointment, sadness and calmness. The area I needed to release has been released and I know God was in control of the whole situation, knowing it was an area I needed to let go to keep my priorities right where they should be. God, Family, Church, Job and others when things start moving up over family and God its time to let go.
So I sit here sick myself, and relieved that God is in control even when I don't know how to be =).