Gods in control
I sit here in bed, finishing my day with my little one next to me. It has been a rough day for both of us, Elijah began his morning like every morning, happy, bouncy and talkitive. I took his blood sugar it was in the 300's I knew at that point it was going to be a busy day for me. Well about 12 this afternoon Elijah comes to me and says his tummy hurts, not 5 minutes later it all started. Dry Heaving, fever, just looking really bad. Elijah can't throw up because of a surgery he had so for him to be sick its harder on him because he doesn't get the releaf of releasing the bad stuff out.
So I sat with him all afternoon, giving him water, wiping his mouth when the dry heaving kept beginning and making sure he was as comfortable as possible. Then about 6 this evening, it happened another seizure, it wasn't one of his complex seizures it was a grand mal. As I sat with my baby in my arms all I could do was hold him, talk to him and let him know it would be ok.Through my tears praying for his little body and releasing him into my fathers arms. About a minute later he had calmed, was fast asleep and I didn't leave his side the whole time.Listening to him breath, watching his chest to see all was fine.
These times I always make a step closer in learning faith, what it means and where I still need to grow. This is my little boy I hate seeing him in pain or sick, but there is nothing I can do I have to rely on God to take complete control over elijahs life.
He is finally settled in sleeping next to me, as I watch him sleep I praise God once again for his wonderful hand he has placed on my son, keeping him safe yet through another trial in his young life. My life long dream is for my kids to know even with all their medical issues, that there is a God that cares for them, loves them and will sustain them through any trial they may face.
So as I head to bed, I can rest not only in the comfort of my family but also in the comfort of my fathers arms.
So I sat with him all afternoon, giving him water, wiping his mouth when the dry heaving kept beginning and making sure he was as comfortable as possible. Then about 6 this evening, it happened another seizure, it wasn't one of his complex seizures it was a grand mal. As I sat with my baby in my arms all I could do was hold him, talk to him and let him know it would be ok.Through my tears praying for his little body and releasing him into my fathers arms. About a minute later he had calmed, was fast asleep and I didn't leave his side the whole time.Listening to him breath, watching his chest to see all was fine.
These times I always make a step closer in learning faith, what it means and where I still need to grow. This is my little boy I hate seeing him in pain or sick, but there is nothing I can do I have to rely on God to take complete control over elijahs life.
He is finally settled in sleeping next to me, as I watch him sleep I praise God once again for his wonderful hand he has placed on my son, keeping him safe yet through another trial in his young life. My life long dream is for my kids to know even with all their medical issues, that there is a God that cares for them, loves them and will sustain them through any trial they may face.
So as I head to bed, I can rest not only in the comfort of my family but also in the comfort of my fathers arms.
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